Sometimes there are so many feelings swirling around inside it feels like a giant tangle. Like a rope or thread that has gotten mixed up and knotted. I cannot tell the end from the middle. I cannot tell which feeling dominates. I cannot tell myself where to start.
Happiness. Anger. Grief. Jealousy. Sadness. Frustration. Elation. Fear. Hope. A tangled mess. Which feeling do I feel the most or the least? It is hard to tell when it is all a jumbled mess. If I start pulling on the edges and aggressively try to untangle it tends to tighten up and get worse.
But, if I gently pull and shift and move each piece I can feel the tension or softness of each section as I go. It may start to loosen and unravel. Interesting, I think.
If I were my own best friend I would remind myself to feel all the feelings. Like a tangled mountain of string, take each piece gently and slowly work my way along the string. It will start to unravel and open up. I am in that tangle but sometimes in order to get out I need to focus on each feeling. Let it be felt and touched and seen. What is tangled can become free if I put in the gentle time and effort.
Do you ever feel tangled?